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PoethippyFeZ
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Name: Eric
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Metro: Lawton
Gender: Male
Interests: Music, Guitar, Outdoors, Climbing, camping, books, surf, the ocean, travel
Expertise: Guitar, climbing, canoe, raft, swim, travel, camping, wilderness, Singing
Occupation: Military
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AIM:  SgtFeZZiK
MSN: Poethippy@hotmail.com
Member Since:
3/10/2005
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| Just so Everybody knows, over at my facebook I will be posting pictures over the next couple of while. Pictures of a rather large Lego Project I will be working on. Darth Vader's Advanced Tie Fighter. It is a Christmas Gift I received from a friend of mine. Check it out. | | |
| I realized tonight I am scared. I had a difficult afternoon I think because someone else looked at my lyrics and had an opinion about my music. Not a bad one, just a little different then what I was thinking. I haven’t written anything in a long time, partly because I think it’s not good, and it’s scary to take that chance. So I had this strange evening where I couldn’t find anyone, and felt abandoned and embarrassed and scared for a minute. And then my friend appeared and we went to the movies. I saw August Rush. I am not ashamed to admit that I wept openly during a large portion of this movie. I don’t know if I always will, or if I had seen it under different circumstances that I would have, but I did and I needed too. And I learned a lot from this movie. I realized how much this summer meant to me. I spent a summer in music. I spent a summer pouring out my sweat to bring people music, and I knew in a part of me it was the right thing. I was doing what I was supposed to be doing. And I realized what was really scaring me was going home. I leave to return to Oklahoma on Friday. I realized I am afraid of losing everything I gained this summer. I am afraid I will fall away from the music again. Every time I am immersed in the music I know I am where I am supposed to be. It’s not that I am good, because I don’t think I am. It’s not that I am smart or smarter then anyone else about music because I know I am not. But it is one thing that I feel a part of and that if I lose I feel like I have lost an arm or leg. Something of me, something significant is missing if I don’t have the music. I know music is where I am supposed to be. I know that if I find love, it will be because of music. I know whatever my lifes purpose it is wrapped around music. I know who I am is defined by music, music I make, music I listen too, music I feel. And that is the big part. I feel music. I know it is right, because when I play, when I listen, I feel music. It moves me here and there and carries my spirit. It connects me to the music and to other musicians. It connects me to the people around me, and makes that connection purposeful. The energy I feel from the music is beautiful. And ultimately where all this is going is that I can’t quit. When I get home I can’t stop. I have to keep making music, playing music, giving music to other people. If I don’t I will because that guy I was before again. I don’t want to be that guy again. I don’t like him. I like who I am now. I am happy, I am purposeful. I don’t want to lose that. So I got to keep with the music. If music isn’t in the Army, if the opportunity comes, I am going where the music is. I have to. Don’t worry, I am not going to do anything rash, or not well thought out, but I have to go where the music is. It’s what I am meant to do. | | |
| Yeah, I quite keeping up with the daily thing. It seemed tedious and redundent after a while anywhy. About all you could get out of it was where I was. So anywho. Here I am back at Belvoir. The tour is over, most of the cast has gone home and the few like me remain to clean up the equipment. Not bad. Good times. Just feels like I am in a holding pattern of some sort. What's the deal? I don't know. It's weird. I guess I just have too much time on my hands to think in the evening. I should read more. Well, that is the update. Back in OK in DEC. Back for the weekend for OKe'd in Christ. Peace OUT. | | |
| Well, I know I haven't been keeping up with this, but it seemed the day by day knowledge wasn't all that interesting, in comparison to the over arching story. In the last 2 months we have lost 2 cast members putting us at 12 and one of the cast members lost a son, one of twins. Now I am in the land of the morning calm, Korea. we have been here for 9 or 10 days, and we are at the 3 base with 2 or 3 more to go. I have stayed out of the economy, sticking to the base and staying out of trouble not spending my money. The show is very different here because we don't have all the set and lights that we normally have back home. We had to trim it all down for the shipment over here. So I just thought I would through something up here and let everyone know I am still alive. Peace OUT | | |
| OK, so I haven't been on here for a while, but things have been pretty busy as of late, with all the near home travel I have been doing. We did the shows at Polk, and then got into San Antonio, where I got to spend some time with Indi. We hung out the night we got there and then after the last show I did there. Then we rolled up to Fort Hood. Also very fun. I got to spend an evening hanging out with Cash and Tex and the little one. He is so fun. We had a couple of good shows there and then we rolled into Lawton. Teched in the day we arrived, but I still got a chance to hang out that night. It's funny though, I have a lot of friends there, but Jared and his wife are the only ones that consistently spent time with me and took into account the other things I had to make time for. Good friends. I am seeing if I can finagle them out to DC for some of the last shows. We did Karaoke last night and had a good time and now we are on the way to Kansas. Being back in Lawton was fun, but reminded me of all the baggage I wanted to leave behind. They treated me well though. Picture in the paper and all that. Lots of family got to come and see the show, and I got to spend some time with the folks. But now, I am on the road again. We shall see what the future holds in store for me. Peace OUT. | | |
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